i really really care

Sometime i juz pretend tat lik i dun care~
Coz i dunno how 2 show out my care~
Its need how much of courage, u know?
Wat i scare for? myself oso dunno~
thing tat i more care i will more pretend myself lik i dun care~
But actually i dun lik dis type of care, its so "meaningless" ~
actually i dunno wan use wat suitable word to describe it~
Coz not everyone can know tat wat ur heart are thinking~
Same as not everyone can feel ur care tat u keep in ur heart~
But i hv no way to solve it~
I think i need to take a course to study about how 2 show tat ur care~
haiz... suddenly think of dis~ why? i dunno again~
As wat my teacher say 2day, i think i need to see psychiatrist~



I'm So down today~
Yujing hv 2 leave me after dis, but she din tell me~
But i know tat if is me, me oso wont say juz dunno how 2 say~
dis is the reason i use to comfort myself?
Anywhr Wish she all the best~

Thursday is coming, i done my R&D but i think it got somewhr wrong~
I'm not scare to speak in front of many ppl juz scare speak out the wrong thing~
its so awkward~
and other so small cases but when come to me 2gether it can make me so down~

I NEED YOU ALL NOW ~